An Ode to My Favorite Almost

I don’t know why, but out of all the people in my life, you are my favorite. 

It’s a simple truth that is unfathomable, yet feels effortless. When I’m with you, I feel a sense of comfort that is hard to describe. I can be my authentic self, open, yet completely vulnerable. 

But this is not a declaration of love. It’s not one big romantic gesture of telling you that I love you like some movie plot, even though it sounds that way at first. This is just a heartfelt expression of my appreciation for you and the unparalleled bond that we have—some kind of homage to the way you’ve made an impact in my life.

I know that you might never read this, but it feels like there is something about writing this down for the world—or perhaps just for myself—that feels necessary.  Maybe because writing about you means that I will never forget about you. 

I’m writing not just to you, but to anyone curious about who you are to me. You are my vague kind of love, but maybe being my platonic love seems more appropriate. You have my heart in a way that feels both like a romcom cliché and at the same time, an entirely original experience. With you, I feel whole, and that’s a feeling I never want to lose. There’s just something inexplicable with our connection where everything just makes sense as if the universe aligns whenever we’re together.

You may not be the one for me in a romantic sense and I am very aware that I am not the one for you either, just like what Phoebe is to Joey. But just know how dear you are to me and I want to keep you close to my heart.

Some might find it odd how much you mean to me. They may think that this letter is a literary form of my declaration of love with a hint of rejection, but even if I wrote an entire book about you, I don’t think it could truly capture the depth of your role in my life. You are not merely a special guest in my story; you are one of the main characters who bring color to my mundane life.

In the end, I know that I will always love you, just as Rosie loves Alex—honestly, truly, and completely. You will always be my favorite almost, the person who holds a special place in my heart. 

Our relationship may be already parodied in different romantic comedies, but still, it is beautiful in its own little way. So this is my letter to you, the person who makes me lose my eyes whenever I smile. I want to remember you as you are, and no matter where life takes us, I hope you know how much you mean to me. You are, and will always be, my favorite person… 

…if only you can read this in heaven.